Live Like A Tree. A Tree Of Life.

I was on my porch a few days ago, just soaking in this amazing new fall weather; Enjoying an amazing lunch of tomato soup and grilled cheese, when God hit me with some revelation. I should be living like a tree. Tree’s live to worship God in everything they do, and they don’t question when to do it, or how to do it. They bloom when asked to bloom, they sway to the winds music when asked to. Joining in with their own wispy voices. They don’t envy the tree next door, or covet what color they turn, or count how many flowers they get. They just worship. When they are going through their season of death, they take it. Knowing spring will come and they will beautifully bloom once again. And you know what? I find that when all their leaves (possessions) are dying and falling off, that is when they are most beautiful. Sometimes Trees need to be pruned.. Sometimes trees get attached by bugs. Trees grow deep in the earth supplying nutrients to all kinds of other things. They plant seeds and help grow other things. Trees need light, water, and vitamins. Put a tree in the dark and it will die. Even with light, water, and vitamins; trees eventually die… But they create something to live off of for all kinds of other things. Trees have faith like a mustard seed.Trees depend on God! They don’t question His authority. Their whole life is a act of worship to God. I think, we should learn a lesson from trees.

May God bless you, yet stab you in the heart.

Have A Great Life!
-Allie

Writing a song.

The guitar is the rhythm of my breath slowly letting go of lies, The piano is the passion I can’t show through my eyes. The drums show the arrhythmia your love causes, and the bass brings it all down low from whence it started. A symphony of melodies trying to convey emotion. Something that goes beyond language, and inspires motion. A breathe of freedom, a passion burning, A heart turning. It doesn’t matter. The instruments flow through you, taking all your burdens as they go; but also giving. Giving a spirit of longing. Longing, to find someway to use the breath in you to express what your body is living through. That’s where lyrics come in. Telling the story, so the public can feel not only the emotions, but live the story. To become desperate with you. To fall on their knees and realize the same love you have come to feel. A love you can taste, feel, smell, see, become, believe. A love you can cry to. A love you can smile to. A love to live through. You only hope the lyrics capture it, but how can you capture infinity in a few words? You can’t, but you will try.

Just a little update.

I know I’m hard to count on,
Forget half what I’m told.
You probably only know my voice from,
this stupid microphone.

No school, no job, and not much music…. This equals not what I planned my life being when I was a little girl..
Of coarse I didn’t think I would be pursuing music…
I have also come to realize I am going to be hard to live with unless I start cleaning more often.
My room is so unorganized!!!
Its just so hard to clean when there is a guitar, keyboard, music and a pen sitting by.
My artistic ways are getting the better of me!!

I feel like I am going two steps forward three steps back.
I also still have that same fear of getting lost behind the microphone.
Which I guess brings me to one of the bigger things that has happened since last blog.
My uncle in Tx. Recorded two of my songs. Exciting!

I have really gotten to know things I really need to be working on these past few weeks.
Like just living a more outwardly passionate life for God.
I want people I pass to know without me saying a word, that I love God more than anything.
And I want Gods glory to shine in everything I do. I could tell you thats how I live…. But that would be a lie.
I don’t know many people who do live that way. Which is sad, God loves us so very much, and we shut Him in a closet. Only taking Him out when we want to. I should be living for Him, and Him alone. Not just saying I am.

That pretty much sums up my life right now.
Pretty boring I know… But at least I am not in school.

May God bless you, yet stab you in the heart….

Have a great life!!

-Allie

Is Love a fancy or a feeling.

Countless romantic books and movies, billions of songs, we even get our kids started on it through Disney princess. But does that even really exist? I mean they show Cinderella getting married on this super fantastic emotional high, but they don’t show when a few weeks later she discovers her perfect prince has a snoring problem… I mean is this thing we today call love really what love is? Or is it an emotional high we get over, and just hope we have a good friendship with the handsome prince afterward.

Is there one person you are destine to fall in love with? Or is it just the first person you finally buckle down and decide to stick through think and thin with.
I wonder if for woman it really is just a safety thing? Is it just whoever pursues you the longest?
Showers you with the best complement and gifts until you can’t say no? For men is it just a challenge? Something you see, and want?

Now after I have said all this, God has kinda revealed some stuff.
“You love me right?” He says. Yes of course I do, I mean yes there is security, there is an emotional high; but even without that emotion, there is still this love, this pride I have for Him; And honestly as I have been filled with His spirit the “emotional high” has become an ever present feeling. I honestly catch myself giggling at His love for me, blushing at His beauty. Sounds a bit like a crush if you ask me. Also, God pursues me, He has a jealously for my love and attention like no other, He spent time creating each finger, each cell, each hair. He made me desirable. I mean WOW! That is love! And then he made that love tangible to people. This is such a beautiful thought its almost to hard to explain, so sorry for the jumping around.
He made man and woman to show His realationship to us on earth. To show us that love. I mean He made man from earth, can you imagine, a human from dirt. And then saw Adam was incomplete, so He made Eve, (beautiful, pure) from part of Adams very own body! One of His ribs, something that protects His heart. So does that mean all of us girls have our own Adam’s rib? A specific guys heart? Maybe, maybe not, but that sure is a really romantic thought.
We, (man and woman) are both in a way incomplete, and then through marriage, sewn together through the Spirit and a Holy covenant. Then we become a servant of God. I mean this is just beautiful picture!
Something to remember, The Spirit is just as ,No, more important than your spouse. I mean yes, we are a complete person… But we need that glue, that binding agent to make us complete.
I mean think, yes Adam met Eve and they where one… But lets not forget who made this whole thing to begin with. God needs to be the center.

Now I don’t think you need to just put your life on hold and wait for your man or woman, God is going to use you no matter what. But it does leave something to be excited for.

Maybe you are thinking, but Allie… you said yourself, the whole Cinderella act doesn’t last…
Yes, it doesn’t but I don’t think her and Prince Charming had the Spirit guiding them. You have to remember, the Holy Spirit can heal snoring.

Have A Great Life!!

Allie E. Doss

Dating God.

“Here I am here I stand take a picture of my hand bet you can tell it’s not manicured.
Here I am half a man I’m not a doctor I’m not tan and I never help the score.
I drive to fast, the team picked me last, I break the rules and like it.
My body curves, I forget the words, I missed the serve and lost it.
All my flaws to see, you, you still love, love me.
Here I am face down sometimes I smile, sometimes I frown but it depends on the time of the day.
Here I go off the road, I spend cash on my clothes when I still have bills to pay.
My skin isn’t clear, haven’t spoke in a year, ’cause I still have fear I’m trying to overcome.
My truths aren’t right, and my jeans are to tight, when I pick a fight I turn around and;
all my flaws to see, you still love, love me.” -Flaws, Caitlin Crosby.

I just ended a Nine month dating fast, in that nine months I grew up. God has shown me so much. I grew up with the mind set, oh I need to find a guy! Then, and only then will I be whole. He has shown me that common mind set is truly wrong. He has shown me that I am a woman whole by myself, in Him. He died to make me whole and alive. How beautiful, I fully doubt any guy I meet will love me with the kind of love God has for me. Although I truly look forward to the day God bring someone into my life. I am definitely fine with waiting. Its hard, I don’t know how hard it is for you men, but let me tell you. Woman from my conversations thrive for that personal relationship. For me it’s not the physical, or even the romance. Its is that amazing friendship you receive. Dang! I want it so bad, it sometimes physically hurts. When I felt this way I used to pop in a chick flick, which would make it worse. Sometimes tears would even come out. Now I pray for my future husband and the strength to feel whole. I read the bible, and worship Him. It also truly helps to write a song, but maybe that’s just me.

I am currently listening to a series on the song of Solomon The Peasant Princess by Mark Driscoll.
Man, It is awesome I truly urge you to listen to it. It has really just given me satisfaction to wait. Because there is an awesome man out there for me, and God is preparing to rock both our lives. It is going to be awesome. He is going to be awesome. I am so excited to meet him. He will be my rock and protector, he will be an AMAZING Christ follower, and he will be smoking… At least to me. Through God we will change the world for Him, no joke. I just know we will. But for now, I will be full of God. There is no room for anyone else. He is calling me to grow up right now, and that in itself is enough to fill up my life. Just know if you are ever feeling like half a person, that spot isn’t for a man or woman. Its for God. And that is just an awesome thought. I am Not “single”… I am dating God. ^_^

Have A Great Life!

-Allie E. Doss.

I just want to scream!!!!!!!

I am so uncontrollably happy! The Holy Spirit has rapped me with this cloak of warmth, I can’t help but smile.
I can’t help but sing, if not out loud in my head. Its just there! This unending worship service. I don’t know what to do with myself. I just want to be locked in a room with a guitar and piano and sing and write forever!
Just love songs for God, I am so captivated by Him.

I just want to do this! but at the same time I don’t. I am afraid, of people. Not really what they think. Just the thought of maybe being changed for the worse by a crowd of people. I can just imagine my love and passion for God and music draining away. It scares me.

I know I should not be afraid. But even if I where fearless…. Where would I start. I am so impatient, I am as impatient as I am scared. AARRRGGGGGG!!!! WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO!! This makes me go from having an amazingly happy day to not so happy….

Its really hard to take it day by day… But I am! I trust God. If i am supposed to do something with my music it will happen.

Have a great life!!

-Allie

Don’t put me in a box.

“I’m sick and tired of making faces, nothing more than second places, I’m coming ’round the bend but I am crawling slowly. When everyone around is rising raise your glass to compromising. Tell me now is this what we call freedom?” -Freedom (Caitlin Crosby)

I have always wanted to change the world. I remember my prayer before I went to bed consisted of having criminals come to Christ, solving world hunger, and finding a cure for cancer. I went through wanting to be a doctor, astronaut, marine biologist, and many more life saving jobs

Now I am 18 I am graduating high-school barely but I am. I refuse to take the SAT for many reasons. One being I really don’t want to know how dumb I am compared to everyone else. I am completely right brained meaning I could write you a poem, song, or draw you a picture and blow your head off, but when put in a room for a test in any school subject I seem to completely lose my brain. I know I am not “stupid”. God created me with a unique perspective on things, He wanted me to be out of the box. But today’s school systems and job opportunities call it “stupid” and say that I need drugs to tone down my energy and concentrate, Then I will be “normal”. The enemy just keep pushing me down, telling me I’m not good enough.

“Allie you are worth nothing, your music and jewelry designs do nothing to the world. Allie you don’t change the world at all! You don’t make it better, in fact you may just make it worse.” ” What? You don’t know the answer to that? HAH! You are even more worthless than I thought!”

I have had those words in my head my whole life, sometimes I just want to give up and go home. But I know God created me with a purpose so I just keep seeking what He created me to do. Lately I have really been concentrating on music. Over and over again God has confirmed this calling in my life. I just need to figure out where it fits in. Hopefully sooner than later, I still have no job and money is starting to run out. I really cannot describe my hatred for money. I hate making it, spending it, and the smell of it.

Whew, I’m glad I got all of that off my chest.

Have a great life!

Allie E. Doss

Lightning, Stars, Thunder, And the Man On The Moon.

I feel like I can’t explain what has happened in my head tonight, but I will try.

We where suppose to go to a Good Friday service at 7:00Pm, at the Verizon Wireless Amphitheater with Chris Tomlin, Israel Houghton & New Breed, Louie Giglio, Matt Redman & Christy Nockels. there came a huge storm… so they were forced to postponed the service until 9:00Pm

As the storm started coming in, I went outside to watch. How amazing is God! How creative is He!
To create such a powerful, changing, unpredictable, and humbling thing called weather. I am truly humbled.
However, as the storm comes closer I realize the time, and that we will not be able to drive through this and get to the amphitheater.

Tick tock tick tock… The clock runs on unforgiving. I finally give up on the hope of going to the concert I had looked forward to for weeks. O’well whatever happens, happens right? About 9:30 the weather cools down and my dad decides we should give going a try since we had the tickets anyways. The drive was beautiful as I looked at the sky and to one side of the car saw lightning, rain, and thunder; and to the other the stars and moon . We arrive about half way through (10:30) as Louie Giglio is finishing his sermon, but even catching the last of his words hit me. For some reason God has shown me what I am suppose to do! After all the praying finally! But to do what he asks requires me to conquer fear I don’t really feel like facing at this time. I’m quite comfy in my little bubble. Then Chris Tomlin, Matt Redman, and Christy Nockels started worshiping, and I realize how many people came despite of the weather.

So, after some AMAZING worship we head to our car (about midnight) and start our journey home. My dad starts talking about how Louie Giglio and this one guy (i dont remember his name) went shark hunting once when they where 16. it’s an amazing story my dad says as he searches through his Cd (he had the sermon in the car) so we listen to the story and of course… What is the sermon on? Courage. Ok God! I get it now.
Listening to fear is just letting Satan conquer us. And we will always be scared if we don’t take a chance, that fear is never just going to go away;but with God shouldn’t that fear go away? I really don’t know it’s just something that I wanted to get out. Any thoughts?

Have A Great Life!

-Allie

Proverbs 30:1-9

I felt God compelling me to quit my job about two months ago. Now money is running out and God has given me no further instructions. I don’t want to just apply for another retail job, I would just be putting myself back where I began. I have started jewelry but have no idea where do begin. God give me guidance! Awhile ago (when I still had a job.) I read this verse in proverbs. And It made it me cry an absolute prayer to God.

“1 The sayings of Agur son of Jakeh contain this message.

I am weary, O God;
I am weary and worn out, O God.
2 I am too stupid to be human,
and I lack common sense.
3 I have not mastered human wisdom,
nor do I know the Holy One.

4 Who but God goes up to heaven and comes back down?
Who holds the wind in his fists?
Who wraps up the oceans in his cloak?
Who has created the whole wide world?
What is his name—and his son’s name?
Tell me if you know!

5 Every word of God proves true.
He is a shield to all who come to him for protection.
6 Do not add to his words,
or he may rebuke you and expose you as a liar.

7 O God, I beg two favors from you;
let me have them before I die.
8 First, help me never to tell a lie.
Second, give me neither poverty nor riches!
Give me just enough to satisfy my needs.
9 For if I grow rich, I may deny you and say, “Who is the Lord?”
And if I am too poor, I may steal and thus insult God’s holy name.”

Hmmm…….. Be careful what you pray for, hahaha.
But being jobless has made me seek god and depend and trust in Him more than ever before.
I know God has amazing plans for me in the near future, I just need to wait, pray and prepare. I am really hoping it’s sooner rather than later…. But hey I am a human.

Have a great life!!!!!!

-Allie E. Doss

Faithful!

Have you ever wondered why God made the Big Dipper, the color Pink, or why He made flowers? I mean, I’m pretty sure I could live without those things. Yes we need plants for oxygen, but if I had never seen a flower before I don’t think I would die…. But my world would be awful lot less vibrant. Have you ever just sat outside and thought about how great an imagination God has? He is so creative, He invented creativity after all didn’t He?

I went outside tonight to just shoot some hoops, and ended up laying in the driveway starring at the awesome never ending creation God made that we call simply “Outer Space”. Ok, what a lame,simple name to call it.

Anyways to get to my point.
I’m about to graduate High school and for the past two years I have been freaking out about what I am suppose to do with my life. But this is what it says in Mathew 6: 25-27

25″Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[a]?
28″And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them.
This passage makes me ashamed to not trust God. We are what He made at His creative best!!! Don’t you think He is going to take care of us?

I have been rereading Jeremiah this week and it has helped so much!
Jeremiah 29:11 says “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” I think if God has a plan that is what is going to happen, and I think I’m safe in trusting the God and creator of the entire universe. Before I go I would also like to say this. There is no age you become available to help God. Pray, and start now!

Jeremiah 1:6-10 6 “Ah, Sovereign LORD,” I said, “I do not know how to speak; I am only a child.”
7 But the LORD said to me, “Do not say, ‘I am only a child.’ You must go to everyone I send you to and say whatever I command you. 8 Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you,” declares the LORD. 9 Then the LORD reached out his hand and touched my mouth and said to me, “Now, I have put my words in your mouth. 10 See, today I appoint you over nations and kingdoms to uproot and tear down, to destroy and overthrow, to build and to plant.”

Pray for wisdom and believe what you pray, (James 1:5) He will always be there for you.

Have an awesome life!!!!!
-Allie